The Countdown Begins
I don’t know when I’m supposed to start counting down the days until the one year anniversary of Johnathan’s death. First of December?...
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Jackie Huff
- Sep 20, 2021
- 0 min
9 Months
Nine months. It’s been 9 months since I held you in my arms. There’s something about that 9 month time span that always hits a mom in the...
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Jackie Huff
- Jul 5, 2021
- 3 min
Stepping Out of the Bubble
The bubble is simultaneously good and bad. The days you wake up and you just feel like you can’t face the day, you get into your bubble. ...
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Jackie Huff
- May 28, 2021
- 2 min
Radio Silence
Some circumstances around unexpected deaths will require the surviving family and friends to take on a code of silence. It may be that...
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Jackie Huff
- May 12, 2021
- 2 min
Feel Like I Could Die Today
I’m listening to a lot of Five Finger Death Punch. We did as a family when Johnathan was still alive and now the songs and words have...
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Jackie Huff
- Apr 26, 2021
- 3 min
Running Away
Since Johnathan died, I’ve had this internal struggle between wanting to be closer to everything that reminds me of him, while at the...
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Jackie Huff
- Apr 22, 2021
- 2 min
Wake Me From This Nightmare
What do you do when your subconscious is just as anxious and angry as your conscious mind? What’s in my head? Nightmares. Flashbacks. ...
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Jackie Huff
- Apr 3, 2021
- 2 min
The Future He’ll Never Live
When you lose a child, you not only lose the life they had, but you lose the life they could have had. Johnathan was just starting to...
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Jackie Huff
- Mar 27, 2021
- 2 min
Gone
Today I’ve had the overwhelming realization that you are actually gone. No matter how hard I wish or pray, you will never come back. I...
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Jackie Huff
- Mar 22, 2021
- 2 min
Pictures
I take a lot of pictures and videos. One thing that I’ve come to realize, is that each day that goes by, it takes longer and longer for...
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Jackie Huff
- Mar 18, 2021
- 4 min
Triggers anyone?
Michael, 4, came home with this little rainbow from daycare. He had been dry coughing since I picked him up. I chalked it up to allergies...
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Jackie Huff
- Mar 14, 2021
- 2 min
In Our Time of Need...
AJ and I managed Johnathan’s symptoms together from the first sign of blood on Wednesday to the fever on day two and three and through...
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Jackie Huff
- Mar 7, 2021
- 4 min
The Story That Started My Journey
As Christmas Day comes to an end, I feel a deep sadness. Our hearts may never feel whole again, but Christmas is meant to celebrate the...
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